It’s been well over 15 years since Kate T. and I first met. Our relationship lasted about five years. It wasn’t always easy. It was actually quite rocky. There were plenty of challenges. I admit that I certainly contributed to some of the problems in our relationship. I have a hard time with conforming to authority and she proved to be a tough task master. She always demands conformity. Always. She is unflinching in her demands. Relentless. But I tend to always buck against that conformity and rebel against authority. It made for a challenging relationship.
Thankfully, there came a day when we both accepted that a time of unspecified separation was for the best, for the best of both of us. In the end, I like to believe I won since she was relegated to the back shelf. I still held on to her. She was always there. Always present, but she was unloved, unused, unnoticed. And I was perfectly okay with our relationship as it was.
But then I heard she changed. Back when we were together she was at version 6.0. And I am thankful to say, she has received a few much needed upgrades. She was looking rather tired. Now, she looks a lot better. She’s sitting mighty pretty at version 9.0.
Recently, we’ve started seeing each other again. Life demanded it. But I’m okay with it at this point. And to be honest, we are kind of at the honeymoon stage in our relationship. I’ve spent a good bit of time with her recently. It’s been helpful, a good reminder of the old days. I don’t know how long this feeling will last, though. It looks like we are in for another long haul in our relationship. At least five years. Maybe more. This time, she is going to have to be right by my side. I am going to need her more than ever.
But I worry. Her underlining personality hasn’t changed. She still demands conformity. At least now, she does it with a more pleasant voice, a more crafted and beautiful appearance. Maybe, just maybe, I will be able to acquiesce to her demands.
I don’t know if I have a choice…